Disjointed and Sad

I fail, pretty much. It's been 11 days since my last post, even though I meant to write at least three times. Basically, my life has been crazy hectic for a while. For an entire week I didn't get to bed before 1:30 am because of various time-consuming tasks, including college applications, an eight page biotechnology research paper, and my decision to scrap an entire philosophy paper and change my topic at 11:42 one night. Besides the morning where I yelled at everyone who'd listen about how much I hated math and how I couldn't do my math homework and the day where, everything anybody said was absolutely hilarious, the severe lack of sleep didn't affect me too much, which was a plus.

Last Saturday I went to another school's homecoming with some friends. You all know the stuff I went through to get ready for my own, but for this one I got ready in 15 minutes and wore a denim jacket. I think I looked better to this homecoming with such lack of preparation, so I'm definitely not going to get so worked up about looking good for a dance again, even though that was because I wanted to look awesome for my date. But hey, I look awesome normally without the hair and makeup. Lesson I had to learn. On a sad note, a girl from that school died in a car crash the next morning. I didn't know her personally, but I'd seen her around and a lot of my friends knew her quite well. It really is tragic and brings the fact that I, and all my peers, aren't immortal, which is how I feel. I experience a lot of death because of a particular affiliation of my family, but it's not usually someone so close to home and my own age.

My family is watching "Bridge to Terabithia" in the next room. I refused to watch because that book made me cry every time I read it. But alas, I am crying just because I heard bits of the movie. I guess that's another one to add to my list of movies never to watch unless I feel like bawling. "Titanic," "Digging to China," "The Notebook" and the 4th & 5th Harry Potter movies are some of the other ones I can think of right now. Speaking of movies, High School Musical 3: Senior Year came out today. I want to go see it with someone, but not many of my friends are into corny pre-teen Disney movies. Guess I should find someone soon.

I should go find a tissue and write a college essay now. I actually had a good topic for this post, but I can't find the right words to express my emotions regarding it. I'll mull it over tonight and write sometime this weekend.

♥ j.j.