I'm *driving* myself crazyy...haha

I started Behind the Wheel class today. This involves myself taking turns driving with two other teens while the teacher sits in the passenger seat telling us what we've done wrong. So far, we've done an obstacle course (I only knocked over three cones!) and the teacher made me drive on real roads first. He freaked me out by critiquing my very apprehensive driving and talking about how not slowing down before I stop at a stop sign would give him whiplash and make me fail the class and how I was holding up traffic. It's hard driving under pressure. And I'm not quite sure if he was picking on me because I'm the only girl or because I have the least amount of driving experience. I prefer the second one. I don't feel much like writing tonight. Or eating, or college apps, or doing anything other than listening to my new Hawthorne Heights CD, maybe typing a few sparse instant messages, and sleeping. I will try to make this a semi- full length post with useless filler information just for the heck of it.

First topic: Hawthorne Heights. I got their new CD "Fragile Future" on Wednesday and it's amazing. Their style has changed a little bit - they're not as dark in some songs whereas before they were pretty much all dark and emo. Some of the songs are sad (at least for me) because they're about Casey Calvert, one of their guitarists, who OD'ed on sleep aids last November. Casey was my favorite band member because he was a PETA activist, vegetarian, and pretty outspoken about issues I care about. It seems so tragic. He didn't do drugs or anything, he just needed some help getting to sleep through a headache because they were on tour. And then he had a young wife too. It was just awful. But my favorite band recovered and put out their best album yet which has replaced "Disturbia" as my on-repeat.

Next thing: I don't remember. Something shocking just happened. Oh goodness this isn't very fun. I found out something horrible and I lost my train of thought. Maybe this is a sign that I should go to bed soon. Blogging (or anything really) while feeling spaced out and tired isn't the best thing in the world.

♥ j.j.